Humanity

Nothing seems to spark up irritation and frustration in me like a whiney child when I have a huge "to do" list. I'm not sure why, but sometimes the need to get that list of mine checked off is more important than taking the time to soothe a irritable baby, or calm down a child struggling with a sore throat. The Lord grabbed me by the heart today when I shouted at my daughter for losing something I needed in order to get my cooking done. I immediately knew I was reacting out of frustration and I needed to put my agenda aside and calmly go look for the item with her, but my sinful nature won out and I continued my tirade until we found the said item. You know where it was? Not in the cabinet where I was convinced she had haphazardly laid it, but stuck to the side of the formula can that I had just used to make my son his bottle. Conviction? You bet. Apologies for a wrong attitude and misplaced anger? Absolutely.
My hearts desire is to serve my family. To show them Christ here on earth, that they'll want what I have in Him. Did I give them that this afternoon in the kitchen? That's difficult for me to admit. I could hear the enemy telling me upon this feeling of conviction, "it's not like you were calling them names, or even yelling that loud. You were doing all kinds of things for them and getting no help. Yelling a little to show them that you mean business won't hurt them." Wow, he's subtle isn't he?
Matthew 16:23" Jesus turned to Peter and said, “Get away from me, Satan! You are a dangerous trap to me. You are seeing things merely from a human point of view, not from God’s.”
I pray that as I spend time with the Lord and grow in Him, that He would give me patience, balance, a servant's heart, and above all else a humbleness to ask for forgiveness when I've messed up. That despite my shortcomings ("humanity") He would make my life attractive and bring my children to Himself.